homestead rocks :)

ahahaha U GO ANRAN!
totally owned everyone else up..
after seeing ur colorgaurd... i still think its statues :)
jkjk
anyways.........

today was fun ish
eddie didnt goto engineering
wat a faggot.....
made me sad....
makes me sad..
i miss him :(

anyways...
went to santa clarita.. and fell asleep half way but we got there..
half way late for anrans show thingie..
but i made it there ontime :)
and we hung out.. jacked her apple..
apples are yummy to me now :)
imma go buy some apples :D

anyways...
i had one meal todayy...
that was dinner with grandparents... and i had little dragon buns
yup
thats wat im calling them
little dragon buns.. aka xiao long bao ahahaha

anyways..
it was fun with anran.. look forward to seeing her again on the 9th when she comes down for the laurette dinner thingie...
her band rocks (cuz i saw it during finals :))

i guess.. rule 32!

zombieland :)

ahahha
today was umm.. interesting
i woke up feeling pretty crappy
completey tired couldnt even dress properly so i thought
fuck it.. imma just wear sweats..
everyone complimented on how i looked relaxed..
and LMFAO... i forogt about dress up thingie
i came to school and i was like.. fuck.. its halloween..
anyways..
i was half asleep through all my classes..
i felt like complete crap but jeremy cheered me up a bit during break i guess..
anywho...
art was alright...
6th. i died.. i was compeltely drowning in tiredness from.. u guessed it... advisory
anywho after sixth i got to chill in ackys with thomas... although i was suppoesd to be tutoring him...
after that was alright too... kinda boring....
and so cutie -__- dipak calls...
and he wants to watch freaking zombie land..
being me.. i just listened and decided to follow.. hanging otu with some freshies/underclassmen while waiting for dipak to get to school...
zombie land was alright pretty funny....
not my genre but i had fun...

and so after watching zombieland i've learned something...
rule 32... enjoy all the small things in life :)
and so i guess.. i should be enjoying all the small things...

on a random note... y is it that everyone knows about harold and kumar now..
wtf.....

ur my rule 32 ;)

and so im stupid

i just found out..
i fuckign forogt about my dead line
for my frekaing
stupid
rio honod class
i missed 1 current event and 1 quiz.
fml

walking

i just realized today..
i hate walking
but at the same time
i love walking
walking around campus with han le le today yat lunch was fun..
made me less stressed..
except when i went back into engineering
i was lik D:

advisory is done

omg im tired...
advisory is finnally over!
and htey yhated my budgets :(
2 months
of my fucking life...
piece of shit...
well thats that.. justin made me feel better haha ty

stupid kevin.."cuties unite" LOL
i like how u acutally say that :P

im so tired :(
i was called out of all classes today...
just to work on this..
and there was lik 7 freaking advisors
ot uof like the 20 i invited :(
sigghhhhhh
at least thomas kept me company :)
that made me feel beter ahaha
not as lonely

businese meetings are fun
i like leading them..
makes me feel like ihaev power..
imma do this more often now!

sigh
maybe eddie doesnt suck as much as i think he odes..
i undercredit him...
ur stillmy best friend <3 :)

ANRAN SHALL VISIT

well not for me..
ahahha
for band..
BUTTTTT she will visit
on saturday..
must rush to santa clarita
and then lik we can chill
afterw atchign their awesomeful band :)
cant wait!!!!
this is like the only good part of the day

SIGH

sighhh....
im so tired right now....
too much coffee..
too much work...
i miss the good old days...
i need eddie right now..
theres like literally nothing thats cheering me up....
i just need to rant to him like the good old days.. he knew what to say....

paul mah.. fuck u

the definition: life

piece of shit

you and i together....

"You and I together, it just feels so right..."
more on that later....

first..
wow............ school is fuck
seriously...
the hell is this
being project manager just became a lot more shitty
complete crap..
i mean honestly.... thats jsut stupid....
i dont blame u.. i think we all make mistakes..
but i just dont think its right....

so today i realized.. i really like a lot more food than just cheese...
i also like seafood.. and then talking to the cuties i realized.. i love meat..
and onions.. and chocoalte and like everyything :)
basically.. un healthy food :D

anyways more on the begining.....


i love this song..
thats how i feel right now...
sigh....
or is it?
sometiems i really just dont know how i feel or what i want anymore.....
i need you next to me....
i want u next to me....
but why do i always have second thoughts these days...
sigh if i could have one wish...
id wanna turn back time and make evyerything go back to normal..
i'd give up all the food.. all the cheese.. the seafood.. the lobster..themeat the onions chocoalte evyeything...
just to be friends wiht u again.....

i need a day...just alone with the cuties or eddie... and just be able to be there..
cuz honestly... i cant take this crap anymore..
i dont even wanna talk to anymore..
i just wanna be with someone...
cuz right now...
i feel like i have no one..
life is shit..

COSMOS! YOU KNOW!

this be a shout out...
to all those... COSMOS ppl :)
u guys are awesome.. brightest students of the bunch...
i miss u guys..
all of u..
c6fl!
sd5 tonight!
everyone....
my good good friend the awkward turtle..
and the bunny
and the girl who cried bunneh ;)
and of course the girl who loves calling me brian...
and the evil cat
and sheep
and goat
and giraffe
and the freakign ding dong..
and i forgot wat u were kristen but u were something too i think...
.and of course.....

moutnain beer..
imma go make some..

COSMOS!
YOU KNOW!

the definition: cuties

thats u
kevin han le le and jeremy ho.. my fav underclassmen buddies <3 :)

blogger try duu?

sigh i fail at keeping this thing updated...
5 months ahahha
well imma give it one more shot just cuz the cuties use blogger apparently....
and YES U JUSTIN AND KEVIN AND JEREMY HO.. u guys will be officially refered to as the "cuties"...
random thought.. cuties are yummy

anyways...
fml :(
feels like im a lot closer to the stupid cuties than i am compared to eddie..
i dont like that....
hes supposed to be my best friend?
hes supposed to "always be there for me"
or so thats wat he says....
the hell am i supposed to do now...
kevin says i should stay positive...
i think i know better than anything that i wont be able to...
how many times has flint tried to tell me taht...
how many times has that not worked....
my life is just shit.....
sigh i gotta do my stats hw...
i still need to do engineering work...
this work load is ridiculous....
and i have like no one i can lean on....

i wish sd5 was active....
sd5 i miss u guys :(
cosmos.. eveyryone... c6fl..
sigh...... i still think back to the dance..
"please dont stop the music" PIAK *music stops*

if there was something i could do to turn abck time...
so i can redo thigsn with eddie...
make everything better..
make cosmos happen again....

acutallyy
if things could just work out..
i'd be happy to take up everyones work load in engineering
i'd be fine wiht no sleep at all...
i'd be fine dying from starvation...
i just want to start over again...
is that so damn hard...

lifes shit
hows taht for a first post in 5 months